music

me as a dj... me as a singer. today i'll start recording my voice for my band's new album
I must say is a beautiful thing
i am happy!

Growing or loosing

Growing or loosing?
This is a key point... understanding how your life is going.. what are you doin'... the frustration of being connected with something you don't like and to something who brings you down every day.
I need more power, more happiness and to be more alive. I can't see through the walls that surround me. need to breath some new air. Feeel freedom and feel the sun for my future.
Need more power.
that's all folks!

Be-coming real..

Winter is coming as a shadow over my neck, bringing darkness and cold lines. The poor integrity of my hometown with the greedy souls of the citizens give me loneliness and poorness. No love survive to the strength of a wordless hearth. love feeds you but can't fill you up.
I need to sleep and wake up from this grey nightmare.
Need more humanity and less words.

Balancing

Life is a balance.
Between good and evil, nice and ugly, do or don't. A small earthquake and the balance get broken. Falling means calling, for help I mean; to come back to life. I hate this balance sometimes, it makes me feel unsure, scared about what can happen. It deep scares me to be honest. It takes away my optimism to become again a bit negative and dark. I hate those feelings, Feeling secure gives unity and power: the only sure thing now is my B, and my love for life in itself and 4 da muzik. That's all.
I am trying every day to be on the top of the hill and to never fall down... even when the earth's shaking and i feel like I am standing nowhere. Being lost nowhere is like being somewhere you can feel comfortable in desperation I think. Being in the darkness hides you and get you close to a small love for the sad things: I don't want it anymore! I need to smile, to get safe, 2B safe. I want 2B. Ok Is also something about struggling, fighting and surviving. Ok is something about living.
And my life is not balancing but choosing!
What else? I am protecting my life nowadays, I am keeping it on a straight line far from anything that can get bad things on her. It sounds like a huge contradiction to someone who said:"life is living" but is not a matter of living, is only a matter of breathing and feel quiet. I am not scared about suffering, I don't wanto to simpl suffer anymore for stupid things. Maybe I should accept that the loose of equilibrium can be also something that shakes your life, and in shaking it can gives you a new power.
The power of feelings.

"Hopelessly/I’ll love you endlessly/Hopelessly I’ll give you everything/But I won’t give you up/I won’t let you down/I won’t leave you falling/If the moment ever comes" The muse - Endlessly

Playing with my band

A picture done yesterday before playing with my band Ameba.
Was weird to start again playing with them. Slike playing with someone you got connected but you are unable to speak with anymore. Got a bit disappointed by that, but still alive and believing in our music. Music can be a good way to talk with yourself and with people who surrounds you.
Is my way anyway.
What about my normal life, well I get always surprised on how people can be interested in how I am living, something like they have no interests in their own life. Like they got bored of living and in the free time their talkin' bout my (our) life.
Why someone can't be happy only with his own time? Why someone always needs someone else's life to talk about to feel alive? I dunno.
Lack of interests? Lack of meanings? Needs...
One thing more, I talked with the doctor, he said I have no more sickness, I need to do more controls, but it seems I am ok now, it's the start of a new life, with many control and why not, fears, but is a good life.
Is my life. And I won't loose any chance.
this picture is the first one in which I feel normal and powerful, finally!
Take care Marco. Take care of yourself.

Sos

I took that picture going to a Bjork's concert.
An amazing concert made by an amazing artist as bjork is.
The vibes she was able to spread to us was amazing, B got really into it, as me. We were together in any second of the concert, like being connected by an invisible robe, honestly it was like doing love LIVE.
Same emotions and same feelings. I felt alive, completely alive and she was existing with me: no compromisises, only pure living. This is what I meant before as something exclusive that is happening to me as a couple. i live everything double and i believe in coincidences; she said: "she loves him, she loves him" and she loves me!
Ok seems stupid but is true, Bjork was speaking 4 B, Bjork was spreading love to everyone. She had a small heart under her neck.
Was nearly spreading emotions to everyone and we ate that!
No compromises: only vibes, Love and music.
Music helps me, any day and everytime, and every second of my life. The picture seems as an advice for God, like saying please help us to live stronger and easy, help us to be happy!
I love Music!

Barcode

Hallo.
Writing something on your body means give something eternal to yourself.
I believe in us two, I believe in the eternity of an act like that, i believe in the absolute of our love; I believe in us.
I don't care about our future because only the present counts, i don't care about our life because we are our life! And I want to have on ourself what we are. Slike writing something you know to believe more in that thing. We are what we want 2B, we are what we believe, we are M+B.
I start to believe that nothing can touch us now, because I don't care anymore about anything that me and my beautiful B.
Listen, listen to your heart and believe in what he says.
Listen to your body and believe in what he says.
I love he loves, she loves.
We are ourselves trademark!